This is a picture I took on my way to Wyoming this summer.
I am starting to wonder why I try to love those who just throw that love back in my face time and time again, but I suppose I must continue on if I want to love unconditionally like Jesus has love me, right? It just is quite hard when you constantly do all you can to help, to love, to show the light of Christ to the lost, the ones you care so much about and the could care less. I just hope it makes some sort of an impact on their lives, I hope God will open up their eyes, and mine too! I just want to be way further transformed into who God is molding me to be, to be more like Jesus! Oh Lord continue to humble me, to show me, to teach me and train me! Rid me of myself and let the world see You when they look at me. Today has been an interesting and trying day. I am having a hard time trusting God on things He hasn't confirmed, if it's a 50/50, maybe only time will tell sort of thing, what if I invest so much into it now and it never comes to be or happens? I guess for now I'm trusting in His will and timing whether it comes to be or not, I just feel so unsteady not knowing. On another note; I love not being the typical average normal girl. Each day I enjoy finding areas where my heart is in Christ, where unlike many other girls certain parts of my heart which when theirs belong to themselves and the world, mine belongs to God. I am in awe of where God has taken me from, just how far I've come, but also looking at how far I still have to go! And I know were never going to be perfect, and that we never reach a level where we can say, "ah, I have finally arrived.." lol. I like and dislike working all at the same time, I'm so bi-polar when it comes to my job. I have changed so much from just a year and a half ago, it's absolutely crazy! But I love it, and I know God knows what He's doing, so I trust Him. I should do some more scrap-booking it's something I never thought I'd be into but turns out I am, but I just don't have time right now between work, family, school, youth group, church, worship team and girls group, but being thanksgiving week I have a very clear schedule so it will be nice to get some down time in. I love bedtime lol, it's nice to just shut down and rest. I really should pick my room up and organize some, it's getting cluttered bad time. So now the weather is getting very cold to when it snows instead of all melting, some sticks around. I really could use my snow tires asap, then I won't be dreading the snow as much. I wish I had what it took to write a good blog, but I just don't have it in me tonight, so I'll stick to this poorly done update/random blog. And that's about it for now so I'll leave you with some bible verses on my heart tonight.
(Isaiah 40:29-31) He gives power to the weak and strength to the powerless. Even youths will become weak and tired, and young men will fall in exhaustion. But those who trust in the Lord will find new strength. They will soar high on wings like eagles. They will run and not grow weary. They will walk and not faint.
(John 15:7) If you remain in me, and my words remain in you, you will ask whatever you desire, and it will be done for you.
(Psalms 119:105) Your word is a lamp to my feet, and a light for my path.
(Psalms 54:4) Behold, God is my helper. The Lord is the one who sustains my soul.
(I John 5:4) For whatever is born of God overcomes the world. This is the victory that has overcome the world: your faith.
