Sharing of a little something that has been tugging on my heart..

So I've really come to grasp and comprehend just how much work and effort you have to allot into relationships. I'm not gonna lie. I totally fell for the whole two christians that are meant to be together never struggle or go through hardships nor any bumps in the road in their relationship; if they're truly meant to be then it just works and clicks, no problem. That somehow, someway.. it was like effortless, that they never stepped on each other's toes, ruffled each other's feathers or had any real issues. I have always looked at different christian couples that are married and just thought wow, they seem perfect? Surely that can't be.. but yet I would look at them and feel that they had it easy because that relationship was God's will. (Which the whole "easy" thing, kinda makes sense now, how it doesn't really seem like all that much work and is totally worth it.. one word. Okay two: TRUE LOVE. LIke the God defined, unconditional love.) That philosophy and such outlook that I had has definitely gotten the best of me a few times while in my relationship with Matthew, my only real and serious relationship. It had me wondering at points if it was it, if he could really even be the one because neither Matt nor I are perfect.. I had my moments where satan seemed to get to me. For those who know me, you know my waiting story and how anti-guys I had always been, hahaha. :) I know that this relationship is supposed to be, I know that we are meant for each other. Yeah I know, people say that all the time just because they feel that way. Well I'll be the first to tell you, Matt as well, that I had tested it a million times in God's word, through endless prayer, just talking with God about it all and making sure that Matt was the one. We both did a heap of discerning and spirit checking, before making any decisions to start a relationship. And considering the distance between us, you could bet your tushy that we sure did some serious thinking and going to God about, through, with and for all of this. I guess the one important thing I want to say is that if you were perfect then you would never have any lessons to learn right? And none of us are so that means we all have a bunch of learning to do. Isn't that how we grow? We learn how to take our first step, then we start walking, we learn how talk and we start bonding, how to feed ourselves, we learn how to drive then get a car. My point with all this is that we have to learn, and you tell me that if you had everything easy that you would have still learned all the worthwhile lessons you have. I think we have to learn stuff through trials, through the things we don't think we should have to go through or deal with, you can't reap the harvest if you don't put in the sweat, blood and tears of the crop. (And yes, if you have never farmed that IS actually what goes into it, any blood born and raised farmer will let you know.) You can't reap the benefits or the rain and storm if it doesn't happen, no rainbow if you can endure the wind, rain, lightening, thunder and all that comes with it. Yes sometimes storms can cause damage, but there are always benefits from it, more good comes from the storm then you stop to consider. And how are you even going to grow the crops in the first place if you don't get any rain. I now strongly realize and understand that even though relationships have tough times does not mean it's not God's will, that it's not meant to be. For in our weakness He is strong, in our weakness we need God the most, and a lot of times we are most willing to listen and follow. In those times where we are weak, God gets to be strong and really gets to be glorified and gets to show off a little. ;) I so adore our God! He is so so good to us, isn't He!!?? :-D Even though tough spots come, I refuse to let it get the best of me, the best of this beautiful relationship with God and with my handsome love, Matthew! I'm only going to let it strengthen things. Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. - 1Corithians 13:4-8.