wrote this two days ago.

Im going to be honest. I know who I am, but I lost that and the sad part. In a week I managed to do that. Just one week, I managed to forget what I was all about, I managed to stray off the straight and narrow, I walking this beautiful path started reaching out and picking up things..still walking but becoming more and more captured by the objects I was holding. Day by day they started to become more important, they started becoming my focus instead of the journey and the destination; my goal being my focus..instead of letting my life revolve around this Beautiful God; Creator, lover who has made me and created me instilled with great purpose I was concentrated on other things. Im not the person I used to be, I've come to realize its true..you see how strong you are, who you are, ect. when you leave home, when you leave those little guidence lines...aka a youth pastor, church, godly friends, the people expecting you to act the 'way' your supposed to, once you are on your own your true colors show, it seems like it makes you or breaks you..i'll be the first to say I Broke, I bended and swayed in the change of life, people, atmosphere...And it used to be...There ain't nothing that can't be done by me and God, ain't nobody gonna come in between me and God. Early in the morning talking it over; Me and God. Late at night talking it over Me and God. You could say we're like two peas in a pod; Me and God. We're a team; Me and God. He's the one I lean on when life gets hard; me and God. We're a team; Me and God. and now Im finding my way back home again, back into the arms of Jesus..to the heart of God once again, its a tough journey..I find myself side tracked many times in one day. I still love God more then anyone could imagine, but I am not showing it..just holding it in a box inside, I still played the role and tryed to make people see, but I got pretty caught up in "love" and a guy, I never thought I, that I'd be the one to almost lose who I was and Lose my closeness with God over a relationship, a possible marriage? ugh, but now I have unleashed my passion for Jesus, my deep love for God, but God has had to do a lot of reparing and He had to help show me how to get my fire burning up HOT HOT agian, and now He's day-by-day teaching me how to keep it going brighter and hotter then ever..I have my heart set on one thing, and one thing alone: GOD and that fuels my passion and love...for Him...thats what will keep me running this race..its a wake up call, anyONE can fall.