With love.. xoxo

I can't believe that I've been married for two months and two weeks today. It basically feels like it was only yesterday and that it's been more like four months. I go through our pictures and just swoon over the feeling! Which I STILL need to put those up on Facebook! Procrastination really consumes me all too well sometimes. It's still tender looking at the wedding photos too though, some sour things have happened between friendships during and in the following months after the wedding as well.. Which may be why I haven't put the photos up yet. It's crazy how I can feel head over heels in love when I am looking through them and still it's like salt on an open wound at times too. I'm learning how to enjoy looking through them and  to reminiscence about that day without it leaving such a bitter taste in my mouth. People are people and sometimes things don't work out; people can be cold and ugly sometimes and that's just life. I need to not let someones cold hearted actions ruin my beautiful life and splendid memories. New years was nice, Matt and I stayed in and watched a movie, had one heck of a first new years kiss at midnight then made it a little more into the movie and decided we were too tired to finish it. So we shut it off and went to bed. Well... kind of, if you get the gist of things. Great start to the new year! ;) I can't wait until summer! Not because I don't like the snow, I love the snow! But it's just going to be such an exciting summer! I need to find a swimming buddy! I still haven't taken the tree down. I just love the lights too much! I took down all the ornaments except for the ''our first Christmas as Mr. and Mrs. one'' and the beautiful ''our 2012 wedding one'' that our lovely wedding photographer made for us! Such a sweetheart! It's so beautiful and it isn't mark-ably Christmas like so it will look great placed somewhere special for the rest of this year! I can't wait to see if another week or so reveals any more good from the medication I'm on now. It's been a little over three weeks if I recall correctly and so far I've only had one panic attack. Which is amazing in comparison to the daily ones I was having. Silly stupid anxiety! So far I have seen benefits, but I hate how now I'm wondering if I could just deal without it. I haven't been on a med other then the one prescribed for my hives about a year and a half ago for the last seven years, maybe eight. It bothers me having to be on something, but so far it seems like it has helped. Hopefully it continues to work very well. Goodnight.