I was reading all my previous blogs and

I am so very thankful for everything God has been doing, and doing inside of me. The awesome changes He has made, and made within me. I am just so over all, grateful and so completely thankful for everything He IS DOING right now in my life, and in life, and others lives. I have just been thinking about how much has changed, all for good even enduring bad situations. But now I have my own vehicle, my very own mode of transportation! Looking back a few months, I never thought that would ever happen, and fully Thank GOD it did. About two months ago, well somewhere around that I got to spend a full month with many many family members I hadn't seen in many many years! It was oh so wonderful to get to visit all my cousins, aunts, uncles, grandparents and my dad! I definitely got to make some even more incredible memories and the awesome part is that God is the one who called me and lead me to go there, and He is the one who worked every little detail out. :) How awesome and incredible! Just sooo happy to see what that month did for me spiritually, and everything. Just how God weirdly enough used each one of my family members to show me something, and teach me something. It was like a well needed, bootcamp-getta-vacation thing. Haaha sounds crazy, was crazy but absolutely AMAZING! I cannot describe the greatness of that month, or the peace, love, joy, happiness, beauty, faith, battle, victory and lose that month brought, with being there. Wow, thats about sums it up for now, hey maybe one day I'll remember something else I needed, or desired to write about this. God bless, and I doooo love you ms, mrs, or mr reader. :)

and all along all I needed was Your love oh Lord.

Bloody stained this pure white cloth, now all thats left is my soul to stand. You did your damage, Ive taken the hits. Felt the bitter cold presence of the ground beneath me. Youve done the most, taken my soul left your scars, battered to boast.
Show me your different, but really you don't care. Lift my head but you'd rather see me drown. Captivated my heart, twisted in such a blissful beautiful way until I handed you the key, then quickly turned and I slowly learned day by day the trap you layed, this game I found, the game you played. For from the start is it true, true that you already knew that the win was yours? Sad is for sure, that your the one actually being played here, satan himself pulling your strings, putting on what seems a fantastic show, the deceiving shceme what is was. I took the blows, took them hard, and from the ground I see who you are, and at grace and brokeness..beauty found such a small hold and held on for life, slowly but steadily gave me hope and started we did, on such a long road. No shelter wasn't present from this recovery, from the words, the pain, the dulling and the shame. It was brutal to say the least, but in all awe the most beautiful thing to happen. Bitter sweet was the role we played, love and deceit was the title to share but I'm just fine I'm breathing clean air. Though healing seems so far, and shattered, worn, and beat down I stand. I make sure the key now fully mine again will never be touched, not another soul I'll trust. You did me good, you broke me down, you sat there and watch me fade, bitter and cold your heart beats just fine, well while mine you merely put through all hell, toture and pain..just to watch me burn, wiggle and squirm under your control. Thanks be to God, He's set me free. ♥


I should finish this someday..but I just had to get this out, okay. So please bare with all the bad grammar, spelling, ect.

mug lesson, good stuff :) please take the time to read!

Tonight I was about to make myself some chai tea, when I went to get a mug I saw the one that I wanted to use. I really wanted that one, yes It was just to hold my drink but that is the one I wanted to use, I had no desire to use another, I could have but it would leave me feeling rather unsatisfied. (silly I know, just wait..) I reached for it, but the handle was in the back, it was in the very back and next to it one with the handle facing me. I desparately reached for it and could not get it, even on my tippy toes. It was dissapointing, I'm not to sure what happened but all of a sudden I saw the mug next to the ONE(I wanted) and 'it' I could reach! so I think naturally I went for it..I mean it was within my reach, and fulfilled the same purpose as the ONE I wanted so why not just use that one, in a way settle for less.

TADA! And here comes the awesome life lesson GOD showed me, I'm sure you already know where I'm going but still. Its like this a lot in life, or I see a lot of people do this in life, settle for less/just get by..not strive for the best. Now for me I related this to marriage..just because well thats on my mind quite a bit..I really am not too into getting married..im fine with just me and God for the rest of my life(that being a COMPLETE other story) It really made me think, God if He does..has a wonderful meant specificly for me person out there! and sometimes within the waiting period..our attention fades/ dims/ does whatever, to what it seems, take our eyes off of what God has for us, [IN His perfect timing may I add!] so maybe we as Christians or whatever...children of God I prefer to say..start looking for that 'somebody' that we will or can grow old with, or someone to date, or to marry..taking control into our hands..and sometimes we still say/ or refer to it as is this the 'one'? . . .should we really be looking for that person...isnt that us, trying to speed the process up??? I personally think so! GOD, if He does have someone for you, will WILL will bring that person to you, will put that ''meant for you person'' into your life..but I think whether its us growing impatient or whatnot I think we settle early..settle for less,(not saying that person is less..but by that person not being 'the one God has for you' has made it less..because had you waited it would have been BETTER! ya know??) Now whether its our desires for 'the one' or whatever it may be, I really feel we take that area into our control..yet saying God has control of it..when we should really be focused on God..not who were gona marry...or spend our lives with..as far as i last checked, who knows if we have a tomorrow and God is the one by your side RIGHT NOW..and He is the one your with...RIGHT NOW, so we should be focused on HIM....and then let him write our love story...if thats his will for us..

I think of that mug that I really wanted as the guy God has for me, my chosen husband. Then I think of how stinkin' easy it is just to go for the 'easy reach'
It still is good, still does the job, can still even be something I like...but I think its the same way with our 'future God chosen husband/or wife..' I knew with out A DOUBT that I wanted that pretty amazing, aweseom mug! just like i think when God sends that person, I will know without a doubt...and I wont even have to be looking for him!!! but I could also just find a good christian guy that i like..that really wouldnt be all that bad...but it just wouldnt be the very best!!! and I dont know about you but i want THE VERRRRRRY BEST!! lol well thats my little story... :) and of course it is meant to take it to real life...it applys to our lifes..in one way or another, for me its guys/future husband..but look at it in your life...take this mug 'object lesson' if you will and try to fit it into your life..where are you not going/aiming for the best and just settling, or just getting by..making due...is there something God has for you that you have taken control of in that area..and are trying to make it work for yourself, by yourself??

if we win we praise Him, and if we lose we praise Him.

im told time and time again, ''you'll never win'' but thats not what God says,
thats not what the voice of truth says. nothing is impossible with God, win or lose we must still praise Him, the giant keeps on telling me ''you'll never win''.
BULL, I'm done listening to the junk satan throws at me, at us..who are you going to listen to? One heck of a mighty GOD who wants to help you soar like an eagle or stupid satan who just keeps lying to you, who wants you to lose, to believe you cannot win? Jesus is the voice of truth, I will listen to Him..will you? Even when the time comes and it will when we stand to face our giants, who will you listen to? are you going to be God's champion or sit and be lied to. Don't ever let anyone tell you, dont ever let satan tell you that you dont have what it takes, as long as you have God how can you lose? you cant. I believe in YOU, God believes in YOU...now get out there and do what you know you need to do...GIVE IT YOUR BEST, do it for the glory of God..give God your best, your very best. Keep going, even when your completely drained..thats when it counts! keep going, dont stop...you have to keep moving, to keep going..dont quit til you have nothing left, keep fighting. a lot of the time we think were giving our very best but were not..God wants everything we have! God wants everything you got!! how about we, how about you, lets actually give our best...whatever it may be..we are called, God has called us to do our VERY BEST...to keep going...but to give it our all, the very best we have..and to go until we have nothing left! and when you think you dont have what it takes, when you think you just dont have anymore God has what you need, He really does. Don't listen to the lies of satan, dont let fear stop you. Can God count on you to start giving your all, your very best? set your goals higher, higher then in this life...stop striving for earthly rewards and sucess, and set your eyes upon God..and set your goals on things that will last..

Family :)

First off I'm going to get it out that school, well lets just say things are going fine. Just fine, It still can be challenging at times but I have GOD! Thats all I'm ever gonna need in life, thats the truth regardless of what you say, think, or what your opinion is :) And the whole reason I'm blogging is because I'm going to try, key word try to attempt to put this feeling of love, fun, happiness, healing, joy, hope, peace, laughter, pain, comfort, contentment, life lived to the fullness, the indescribable feeling I am over run with when I'm around and in the presence of my family! I have come to realize that I love them, I *truly* love them, no matter what their doing, where their at and going, who they love, how close to GOD they are, no matter what I love them, I find contentment to just be in their presence, they fill me with a healing, teaching joy!! And honestly no matter where any of us(me + family) are at in our lives when were together life is good, and every things okay. It does not matter what we have going on, what storms were going through, its like they are walking through it with me...(they arnt but its like they are,) I have soooo much enjoyed just loving and being LOVED by all my dearest family the past three weeks, its been TOO incredible to be with them and catch up!! Family is a friendship so close that dispite all the differences and dispite the miles separating you the instant you come together you conect on indescribable levels and its a relationship that you can see eachother once every 4 years and even if thats only for 1 day its the best day of your life, its like you have never spent time apart! and getting to 'share' past stories to stir up that joy and laughter(you know the kind that brings a warmth and fuzzy good feeling like no other, the kind that feels like it just mends and heals the heart for some reason!! :) its amazing) I can't EVEN TRY to explain how much I have treasured this time spent here with the ones I loooooove, I loved laughing until the tears of life, joy, happiness, and comfort ran down our cheeks.. I know, that they, yes they are ALWAYS here for me...not a thing in the world that will change that. :) Im so happy...

everyone needs to read this, and think about it.

Lord of glory, make us worthy to possess your name. Lord of glory, make us worthy to possess your name. And give us a new name. And call us your people, God. And give us a new name.

“I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit in you; I will remove from you your heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh. And I will put my Spirit in you and move you to follow my decrees and be careful to keep my laws. You will live in the land I gave to your forefathers; you will be my people and I will be your God.”
(Ezekiel 36:26-28)

And through all of this, there is nothing, absolutely nothing, no fear, no insecurity, no doubt, no hesitation that will ever, ever stop us. Because we are the son of the living God. Because we are the children of the almighty. Because we are the residence of the kingdom of heaven and we are soldiers in an army of the immortal. And when we speak light, light happens. And when we speak healing, healing happens. And when we speak truth, truth happens. And when we go take what we found to a dead world, we will see it come to life again. When we take what we found to a hopeless world, we will see hope come back, we will see the hearts of our world start beating again and we will see the colour come back in peoples faces and absolutely nothing will ever stop that and mountains will move before us and oceans will pour before us and the dead will raise before us and the world will know that our God is a God that heals, that our God is a God that lives, that are God is a God that loves unlike anyone has ever felt before because we are fearless, because we are his hand, because we are his feet, forever and ever..

what if we tried to love more like this?

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.8Love never fails.
- 1Corithians 13:4-8.

I love reading this, it is always a good example and reminder..My love tends to get selfish, and self seeking..and this always recaptures my heart. :)

theres nothing worse then being frustrated with no solutions and no hope.

I am told not to worry, its okay try your best, do your hardest you'll be just fine. It that the truth or is that merely somthing to lift my spirits and make me feel better? One of the most frustrating things ever is having a learning disability and not even knowing how to cope with it, I just grow more and more frustrated and irritated that I have such problems understanding. I can't even really go to my parents about my troubles because of the lack of paitence, they quickly grow tired of trying to help me when nothing seems to work. I am pretty overwhelmed right now, Im not even sure of and aware of all the learning disfunctions I have. Im only aware of very little. Its devastating when the simplest tasks are huge mountains to you, and neither does it help when everyone is looking at you like your stupid..when you just don't know where to start climbing at...I myself don't even know where to look for help when I'm not even sure of what Im trying to get help for and I come to a place where I feel split, do I run to God and just pray or venture out into more frustration and a bigger overwhelming mess and try to solve this, or at least get by with some sorce of help? Running to God is the only option that offers peace and comfort..but will it be enough. And yes I find it horrible that I even ask If God will be enough..but the way this world is has made me feel as if MY GOD is not enough, that I must run to the 'normal' sorce. of whatever that may be...finding help...understanding whats wrong with me...I don't know. I know that its upseting when all I can do is litteraly sit here and cry...LITTERALLY feeling lost and confused with NO HOPE, ABSOLUTELY NO HOPE. I don't know what to do or where to run, besides God...and even then I'm filled with doubt of is this gonna work?? I need to stop putting my GOD in a box and deciding what and what-not He maker of me can handle. I guess I'm just going to pray until I get a break through? If you read this PLEASE please I ask and beg..pray for me...you can decide what to pray for or about involving all this..cause I am left unable to pray anything except me crying out for Gods help! hmmm, yeah I had to get this out.

little story time

I just heard a story from my sister. She was doing laundry and was washing her bra. With this bra you can take off the straps, and unhitch it to where both sides of it are seperate. She went ahead and put it into the wash and went to finish cleanning her room. Well my dad came along and the wash had ended so he started to take the clothes out and put them in the dryer. Then he pulled out 1 piece of the bra...then the other side...and then well a strap. He called my sisters name and was like 'ummm kendall I think the washer ate your bra, its in pieces! =O' then she told him that she took it apart like that...LOL I dont know..i think you had to have just heard it at random like i did...cuz it just CRACKED ME UP for some reason...

I will wait for who God has even when it is hard.

I just heard thee most coolest thing today, haah.
Attraction can make you feel like its the 'right person'.
Well I thought it was cool anyways, just because you 'like' someone
and/or are attracted to someone doesnt mean their 'the one'

wrote this two days ago.

Im going to be honest. I know who I am, but I lost that and the sad part. In a week I managed to do that. Just one week, I managed to forget what I was all about, I managed to stray off the straight and narrow, I walking this beautiful path started reaching out and picking up things..still walking but becoming more and more captured by the objects I was holding. Day by day they started to become more important, they started becoming my focus instead of the journey and the destination; my goal being my focus..instead of letting my life revolve around this Beautiful God; Creator, lover who has made me and created me instilled with great purpose I was concentrated on other things. Im not the person I used to be, I've come to realize its true..you see how strong you are, who you are, ect. when you leave home, when you leave those little guidence lines...aka a youth pastor, church, godly friends, the people expecting you to act the 'way' your supposed to, once you are on your own your true colors show, it seems like it makes you or breaks you..i'll be the first to say I Broke, I bended and swayed in the change of life, people, atmosphere...And it used to be...There ain't nothing that can't be done by me and God, ain't nobody gonna come in between me and God. Early in the morning talking it over; Me and God. Late at night talking it over Me and God. You could say we're like two peas in a pod; Me and God. We're a team; Me and God. He's the one I lean on when life gets hard; me and God. We're a team; Me and God. and now Im finding my way back home again, back into the arms of Jesus..to the heart of God once again, its a tough journey..I find myself side tracked many times in one day. I still love God more then anyone could imagine, but I am not showing it..just holding it in a box inside, I still played the role and tryed to make people see, but I got pretty caught up in "love" and a guy, I never thought I, that I'd be the one to almost lose who I was and Lose my closeness with God over a relationship, a possible marriage? ugh, but now I have unleashed my passion for Jesus, my deep love for God, but God has had to do a lot of reparing and He had to help show me how to get my fire burning up HOT HOT agian, and now He's day-by-day teaching me how to keep it going brighter and hotter then ever..I have my heart set on one thing, and one thing alone: GOD and that fuels my passion and love...for Him...thats what will keep me running this race..its a wake up call, anyONE can fall.

Let God embrace you in the simplest ways ;)

Have you ever wondered, How can I love the wrong person. Hahah probably not, maybe its just me and what I am going through. I really love sitting here right next to the open door smelling the fresh air, listening to the pouring rain, looking up at the lit up sky. I so many times miss the simple pleasures like this, or watching someone smile, or hearing the sweet joy bringing sound of laughter. I get too caught up in dealing with "things." It's truly amazing what you find when you just slow down, I've been thinking thinking thinking, going going going, and such and I feel God has really has been doing so much to just slow me down, and say "Hey child take a break and look at this, do you see this? I love you! ohhh look at this, grasp me, find me, slow down and sit at My feet and feel My peace." Yeah the rain is something that can drown plans, bum us out, ruin things..but it makes for an incredible after math. New things, beautiful smells, green grass and trees, it refreshes and replenishes and you seem to always get a very awesome rainbow. Thats how I choose to look at it tonight, Jesus bring the rain. Let the storms come, the flood water rise, and rain pour down, I will embrace God through it all, seek Him through it all, and keep my eyes on Him. Cause when I'm looking at the pros of the rain and storm the negative things fade in comparison.. just thought I'd sit down and blog this all out, I hope all of you reading this will just slow down and embrace God today, and let the simple things bring you joy and peace, go sit at the feet of Jesus for a while, its an amazing thing. : )

The More I Seek You :)

The more I seek you, the more I find you. The more I find you, the more I love you. I wanna sit at your feet, drink from the cup in your hand. Lay back against you and breath, here your heart beat. This love is so deep, it's more than I can stand. I melt in your peace, it's overwhelming.

Often I get all worked up and caught up in everything, nothing bad just thinking or frantic chaos of life. But somehow God comes along so small and still and grabs my hand and starts to move, if I don't follow then It is so easy for me to be left, but the call is so sweet and loving, so full of His care and passion for me. Its a surrender to the sweet embrace and pull that I am incapable of resisting. Next thing I know He is taking me to a peaceful place, the secret queit place and we just sit there, and I just bask in His presence and sit there at His feet in His peace while He holds my hand.

wow everything all at once?

I don't even know why I'm blogging, Its dumb and chances are no one reads this thing anyway. Its just to get it out, gahhhh I get so annoyed so fast. I fail, I don't spend enough one on one time, or tent time with Jesus, I fail at being a good daughter, I fail at being good enough for my friends some how I suck at life, or thats how they show the story.., I fail at being specific enough, I fail at being godly, i fail at being worldy, ugh seriously i fail at getting a job though im waiting for further plans from God but noo does that stop everyone from saying "if your ever gonna get anywhere your going to have to sacrifice a little chruch.." ahhh drop it and bud out, i know what im doing, ahhah i dont actually but i have a Father who does know what he's doing, God has control its all good, Im fed up, there failure! ugh, yes i know, im not really a failure so don't send me a message saying, " you know your not a failure" im simply venting, and trying to explain how i currently feel. I dropped out, and we all make mistakes, no mines not bigger then yours! there all equal! Im so completely upset with the way everythings going, ps. dont get me wrong im a happy person, God is still my joy but right now im not content or happy. ok? ok. well one this is for sure I looooooove Jesus with all my heart, I melt at the mention of His most awesome holy name, and my mom I love her! shes soooooo not the mom i want, nor anything i really want, yeah thats harsh but she loves me and i love her, we fight so much you'd never know and we suck at life, we mess up so much, we never talk or see eachother but its true love in a poor broken condition, i love my mommy! :) sooo much shes good at making me smile...
and im soo thankful for kimberly and warren no joke, i cant even tell you, common their too amazing, they help me keep it together!! my mom and dad that arnt really mine...but awesome ppl :D i love my youth pastors! tooooooo much, :D :D :)

at the end of me..restore me whole.

But once again I know I’ve missed it, fallen short, found failure and unworthyness.
I’ve come to the end of me and I’m ready to begin, to find my purpose to find my way.
I’m reaching for you and I am desperate and I can’t do this on my own.
I’m giving everything, finding once again I am to surrender. I’m letting go today.
I’m forgiven because you paid the price I still can’t seem to leave it all behind all my failures, all of my mistakes, still I’m reaching for you. Jesus take the pain inside, take the brokenness don’t stop til there’s nothing left, my arrogance my pride, the loss of innocence, Jesus take everything. Everything I once held dear I count it all as lost and when there’s nothing left of me that’s when I feel alive, made whole in You..here I am Lord take everything, make me who it is that You see not what I am. I want to find the art of losing myself in bringing You praise!

you have to go through the rain to get a rainbow :)

I woke up this morning and honestly I was ehoman what lovely weather we have had for the past four days. I actually really love the rain, but its put a damper on plans for this weekend. I mean don't get me wrong, I had lots of fun running and playing in the rain the last couple days, and last night, but I always feel bummed out when its cloudy for too long. But anywho I walked outside this morning and I had just got done spending some quiet time with God, and to my surprise it was beautiful out, still soggy, rainy, cold, and cloudy, but the grass is sooooo green and some Beautiful flowers have bloomed in the yard, and that made me think about how you don't gain strength if you don't endure anything, because theres nothing to grow from. Flowers arn't going to grow with only sunlight, they need a break (night) which is like a dark period, they need rain, to help them grow, to give them what they need, we need to endure trials and hard situations, they help us grow. We of course ultimately cannot do it without God, but He will bring us through them, and show us more and more as we endure, thats why you have to keep your head up high, why you have to keep pushing even when you can't and keep on treking along when all your strength is gone, God will give you the strength to keep on, "You can do all things through Christ who gives you the strength" Philippians 4:13

fasting.

So I've been thinking about flesh desire a lot lately, I have a burning desire to overcome the flesh, to die to flesh, through Christ all things are possible. From what I know, sissy is doing a fast where she only eats fruits and veggies, water. I am not trying to copy her or whatever, I have just been pushed to try to die to flesh and maybe your the one whos like, you should wait and do this if God has led you to. K well I really don't think God has lead me.. but I do know that I can do all things through Christ! and this is one I want to do, to challenge myself and hopefully to benefit my relationship with God. Sis is doing it for 40 days I believe, but Im shooting for 30 days, maybe I'll end up less or more. Im like ew just water, 30 days? Im nooooot gonna make it. But I do want to do this to deny what the sinful flesh wants.. we'll see what happens.

texting cut off or not

I have been thinking about the flesh, and the desires of the flesh. I find it ever so challenging to fight the flesh, and deny its wants. I was thinking about sissy, and such when I was thinking about texting. I want to challenge myself and stop texting I was thinking a month! but its so easy to give in! I could just start calling people! that could work but I don't know if I should tell people, or just not reply and let them think im ignoring them! lol. I suppose I should pray about this tonight then figure life out. I will update this later.

heck of a night.

Tonight was pretty great, we went for a good long walk. Then me and the girls went up to Boss Hogs for din din. It was a good lesson learned, you need paitence because life doesn't always go as smoothe as planned. Things arise and you must be equiped to deal with many different situations. It definitely makes life much easier if you have learned how to have paitence with a good mood added as well, then those tough "I just wana beat that person" situations are more smoothe sailing and less intense. :) Then we came home, me and Cassidy rode in the back of the truck. We layed down and could not stop laughing, seriously then the water tank peed on us. Poor Kaafree looked like John Wayne. Hahahaa. But then she got into some nice jammys!

family and such.

Isn't it funny how fast we move on, how easy it seems to forget. I have been thinking about all my family, it seems IMPOSSIBLE to keep up with them and the babies. They keep coming, one after another. I don't even know how many cousins I currently have. I wish I could hold a personal relationship with each member of my family. I love them all so much, im so glad we have facebook and myspace or I'd never hear a thing about or from them. Its sad, I am sure I am only thought of every great once in a while if even. I would love to have the money to go see them all! and spend a week with each cousin or aunt, uncle, grandparent. Speaking of grandparents I see them enough I guess, then maybe the next closest my mom's and dad's brothers and sisters and their children, but that seems to be it. My personal goal for this next year is to go see as many of them as I can!

face it life happens to us all at the most unconveinent times.

Life really is indescribable. When I think about all I learn, and go through. The ups and downs, and inbetweens. Feelings, moods. Smiles and heartaches. It all puts me in awe, and I sometimes wonder why it all is the way it is. Thats where I have to just trust God and that He really knows what He's doing. I seem to always end up saying "man o man I hope you know what your up to." Cause I sure don't know what the heck I'm doing. I find more each day that I cannot escape growing up. It happens. I can still stay a kid, but the maturing that is necessary must happen and I must faces the cold raw sometimes unwanted facts of life! I must try I will fall, I must learn and grow. It is going to happen whether I am ready or not. The important part is that everytime I fall, trip or stumble I get back up and keep pushing on with God. I must never put myself before Him, it does not work! I know. I can't forget that He the most wonderful creator gave me this life, so I must give it back to Him and do as He asks. I sadly feel as if my spark of passion for God has dimmed and the deepest love faded a bit in the past couple months. I have dwittled amongst the world and its faulty temporary past pleasures. That only end up leaving a bitter taste and empty awkward feeling with me and then I come to and re-realize that God will always be the only one that gives me life, and pleasure that does not fail to succeed. I really have come to understand and embrace in the strangest ways that I am nothing without God, and neither are you! I don't understand why this ticks people off and offends them, It is undoubtedly one of the most beautiful things to know we are nothing with out Him, maybe people should drop the pride and come to the same realization. The best part is finding what we are and can be through Him, aw at least the beauty that comes from being a child of the King!

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everything.

When I think about it all at once, and take everything in at once its all so complicated and yet very simple. Its probably the most overwhelming feeling ever. So all I know is that I am taking it day by day, God before me, with me and after me. I know I will be just fine because my life is in His hands and I am acting in obedience to His will and ways and also because my main priority is seeking Him and all He has and wants for me. Life is hard, life is down right overwhelming and stressful, but I just have to keep in mind that I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.